Has life ever come to such a crashing halt that your body, mind, and heart did not have time to register what was happening? Motherhood is sometimes just that.
Over a year ago, my life came to a crashing halt when my son suddenly collapsed into a convulsive state while at our local grocery store. So many emotions ran through my heart and mind. I was in a frozen, almost paralyzed, state emotionally. How could this happen? Why is this happening? Why me? Why my child? How do we make this nightmare stop? These were all the questions that looped in my mind each day my son remained hospitalized. One week later, my precious 3-year-old was diagnosed with Epilepsy. Life was moving all too fast to reconcile what was happening.
In the days and months that proceeded, our family faced so many changes. Caring for a child with special needs just seemed too challenging. All I could see were limitations. Places my son previously enjoyed, we now had to avoid for the sake of his safety. Events we could no longer attend that may trigger seizure like activity. People and peers, we had to avoid for the lack of acceptance or understanding of his condition. Limitation after limitation.
But isn’t that what the enemy wants us to believe on our faith walk. That living the abundant life God has called for each one of us is limited. Isn’t that exactly how he deceived Eve in the beginning, by focusing on the one limitation set by God?
Daily, I pleaded with God to heal my son and provide me with strength to endure the waiting time. Little did I know, God was doing a different work in my heart. A shift of perspective! God began to remove the heaviness and overwhelm that I felt day after day. Like a veil being lifted, I began to see the abundance that was and is available to me and my special son. Through His promises, I am affirmed daily that God handpicked me and my family in this season to endure this trial.
Are you currently facing a trial or in a rough season in your faith walk? Whatever season you are currently in or about to face, know that God has handpicked you for it. And if He has handpicked you, He has a plan for you. That simple shift of perspective changes everything about how you face what comes your way.
He turned my “Why me?” into “Wow! Me?”
Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. (James 1:2-4)
Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us. (Romans 5:3-5)
Writing this, I wish I could say that the Lord has miraculously healed my son, and everything has been perfect. But it hasn’t. There have been more seizures, more hospital visits, more bills, more testing, and more medication. The difference now is that I have more strength, peace, and trust in Him to walk me through this journey. I am learning that God manifests His greatest works in our nightmares and our storms. All we must do is keep our eyes on Him and walk in quiet trust that He has it all under control.
“Through the storm, He is Lord of all”!
This is one of my favorite lyrics found in the song, In Christ Alone. Those words continue to ring true to me today. I utter them whenever I am discouraged, overwhelmed, or doubting my circumstance. While my son isn't healed yet. While some days are rougher than others. He is Lord of all. Nothing surprises Him and nothing worries Him. He has it all under control. He is Lord of all.
My prayers have switched from hopeless despair to hopeful expectation. My “Why?” questions are now, what are you trying to teach me in this season? What mysteries or miracles are you revealing before my eyes? How I do glorify You in the season?This change has truly pushed me to see and live out God’s purposes for my and family despite what we are facing.
As I write this today, we are celebrating and thanking God that my, soon to be 5-year-old, son has been seizure free for the last 6 months with medication. I am believing God to turn those months into years and the years into a lifetime. But even if He doesn’t, and the storms continue to rage. He is Lord of all. The good, the bad, and the stormy! Be encouraged!
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